Today is Day 2 of my new life of being a stay-at-home mom and I'm loving every moment! It has its ups-and-downs, but I wouldn't trade a second of the time I've had at home with Wyatt! To anyone who looks down on women who trade in their careers for being a stay-at-home mom- you deserve a kick in the teeth! That is for sure!! But, before I begin telling about all that has been accomplished in the past 2 days- I feel the need to step back and explain what brought me to this point.
On April 18, 2009, my life was forever changed in the most wonderful way imaginable. I gave birth to my baby boy, Wyatt. He instantly became the sunshine, joy, and light of my life! The timing of his birth was perfect! Being a teacher - after my maternity leave "ran out" - we were thrown right into summer vacation, and I didn't have to miss a second without him. That is... until he was 4 months old, and I was thrown back into the life of being a 3rd grade teacher. Everyday away from him was heartbreaking - and I just prayed and prayed that he wouldn't reach a new milestone while I was at work! Although my body was busy working and teaching my wonderful students, my heart was always wishing to be at home with my little love.
BUT- for 2 years, I kept going to work because it was a necessity! We had bills to pay and mouths to feed... so as heartbreaking as it was - I kept working. I loved teaching! Being able to help a child learn and be successful gave me a sense of pride and a feeling of accomplishment. However, outside my classroom door was a life of misery - as the school I was working at is one of the most ominous places I've ever known. Where smiles to the face meet knives in the back! I cannot say that applies to my coworkers- as I know most of them were sharing my same feelings... but the administration was filled with lies and betrayal- which made for a very unhealthy working environment. With the demands of us as teachers being so high, but the amount of support and trust being so low - it was more than I could bare.
One night, I was praying over Wyatt as he was falling asleep - and I asked God to give me some sort of sign as to what I should do. I was so torn, because logic told me that I needed to keep working so we could pay our bills - but my heart and head were telling me to get out! I just didn't have the courage to decide on my own, and I knew contracts were coming out soon and I would be forced to make a decision. The very next morning at work - God gave me my sign! I was thrown into a situation where lies were being spread and deception was everywhere! That was all I needed to know. I turned in my resignation a few weeks later.
So - here I am... taking this HUGE leap of FAITH! I've taken control of my own happiness and am doing what I feel is my true purpose in this life. I am currently a woman who wears MANY hats! I am living my dream of being a stay-at-home Mommy to my brilliant, baby boy, Wyatt! I guess I shouldn't call him "baby boy"- he's really an incredibly active 2 year old (28 months to be exact!) I'm also striving to be a loving and supportive wife to my husband, Josh. He has been my rock through this whole experience and without his support- I'd still be working in the pits of despair! And if that isn't enough - I'm also the owner/manager of Dempsey Media - a photography + videography business Josh and I started earlier this year. For anyone who really knows me - I'm obsessive about what I do... and I do a lot! I'm constantly raising my own bar - and doing anything and everything in my power to reach it! It's no wonder that I'm already getting gray hair and I'm not even 30!
So this is the start of my journey. Will the bills get paid? I don't know. Will the business succeed? I don't know. Will the housework get done? I don't know. Will Josh and Wyatt know that they are my world and I love them with all of my being? You can bet your bottom dollar!
This is my new beginning...
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